I rolled out of bed around 930am and went over to my computer, just like I would on any other Tuesday. As soon as I signed into AIM, a good friend that lived in midtown Manhattan sent me a message.
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Mark in Manhattan:
(9:39 AM): JESUS CHRIST TURN ON THE NEWS
Me:
(9:40 AM): HOLY GOD
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I watched CNN as Aaron Brown struggled to report what was happening.
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Mark in Manhattan:
(9:47 AM): good god
Mark in Manhattan:
(9:48 AM): it's just.. jesus christ.. not the thing you expect to wake up to
Mark in Manhattan:
(9:50 AM): we're lucky that there are tall buildings around the towers.. if the planes were able to hit the base those buildings could definitely toppled
Mark in Manhattan:
(9:50 AM): I mean there's still a risk now
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At 959am, I watched as the south tower collapsed...
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Me:
(10:00 AM): OH GOD
Me:
(10:00 AM): mark...i dont care how far away you are
Me:
(10:00 AM): stay safe
Mark in Manhattan:
(10:00 AM): I'll try
Mark in Manhattan:
(10:00 AM): I've been hearing ambulances and such driving by all morning
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...Mark, however, hadn't seen the collapse.
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Mark in Manhattan:
(10:03 AM): THERE WAS ANOTHER BUILDING THAT JUST LIKE EXPLODED
Me:
(10:03 AM): the trade center FELL OVER
Me:
(10:03 AM): didnt you see it?
Mark in Manhattan:
(10:03 AM): no??
Me:
(10:03 AM): yse!
Me:
(10:03 AM): the south tower...
Me:
(10:03 AM): i need to go...
Mark in Manhattan:
(10:04 AM): jesus christ
Mark in Manhattan:
(10:04 AM): playu
Mark in Manhattan:
(10:04 AM): pkay
Mark in Manhattan:
(10:04 AM): okaty
Me:
(10:04 AM): i can hardly breathe
Me:
(10:04 AM): holy cow
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It's weird that technology allows me to go back in time to exact moments. Reading through this log, and the days that follow, I was reminded of the fact that, at the time, I was a mere 21 years old. I was young, largely immature, suburban and coddled.
I don't remember it this way, but the logs don't lie - I was full of fury and anger. I was calling for revenge. I wanted Bin Laden to suffer and I didn't care how many civilians had to die for that to happen. It disgusts me to realize I once felt that way.
I've grown a lot in the last 10 years.